December 30, 2015

I really hate living, I hate having to deal with people and oh my fu**ing gosh. It's getting harder and harder to fake my every day living. I'm getting sick and tired of having to put on a smile just to please other people and get others to fly to me like moths so that I can use them one day. Everyone is used whether you agree or not. It's either resources, emotionally, mentally, or physically. Not all that surprising but people are in denial. It's strange but I guess people just don't want to admit to how ugly us humans and nature in general is.

I wish there was no living being thing alive. We're just so full of ourselves, think to narrowly and all that sh**. Counting me too, but if we weren't alive, I think life in general would be the best. No wars, no ridiculous racism, gender differences. I  HATE GENDER DEFERENCES THE MOST. Like women are given a complete 180 degrees different role even though it's just we don't have sticks dangling down. There was even a theory a long time ago that women were deformed version of men like really? Why don't you go through fu**ing menstrual cycle, massive weight gain by the tiniest thing you eat, being weaker than the opposite gender cuz we don't got testerones and having to give birth or expecting. Like WTF.

It ain't easy being a female. Males don't have to waste those extra money and they can act however they want. I don't care if they think they have to make money for family, act tougher or some sh**. In reality, both women and men can work to provide for the family. Both can have manly role or whatever. It's how society is such a b**** and decides to assign everyone something so they feel empowered.

Since long ago, men have been too prideful. Is it cuz they have sticks hanging as their pee pee? Like WTGDFH? One of the reasons I don't have a BF. Guys are so damn needy. Females in olden day provide guys mental, emotional and physical needs while men provide financially and figure their role is done. Like guys, screw you. I will live as an independent until I see a guy who doesn't say "Your a girl so I'm the one who has to protect you." or "Girls are weaker.".

What kind of weak? Physically, maybe, emotionally and mentally, I'd say guys and gals have the same strength for that. But more mentally for girls since once they grow up and decide to have kids, they're body will be mentally and physically drained. Maybe emotionally.

So much ranting but I can't help it. Stupid a** Sh** head called a dad makes me want to hit him with a sock full of hard frozen solid butter.