I really hate living, I hate having to deal with people and oh my fu**ing gosh. It's getting harder and harder to fake my every day living. I'm getting sick and tired of having to put on a smile just to please other people and get others to fly to me like moths so that I can use them one day. Everyone is used whether you agree or not. It's either resources, emotionally, mentally, or physically. Not all that surprising but people are in denial. It's strange but I guess people just don't want to admit to how ugly us humans and nature in general is.
I wish there was no living being thing alive. We're just so full of ourselves, think to narrowly and all that sh**. Counting me too, but if we weren't alive, I think life in general would be the best. No wars, no ridiculous racism, gender differences. I HATE GENDER DEFERENCES THE MOST. Like women are given a complete 180 degrees different role even though it's just we don't have sticks dangling down. There was even a theory a long time ago that women were deformed version of men like really? Why don't you go through fu**ing menstrual cycle, massive weight gain by the tiniest thing you eat, being weaker than the opposite gender cuz we don't got testerones and having to give birth or expecting. Like WTF.
It ain't easy being a female. Males don't have to waste those extra money and they can act however they want. I don't care if they think they have to make money for family, act tougher or some sh**. In reality, both women and men can work to provide for the family. Both can have manly role or whatever. It's how society is such a b**** and decides to assign everyone something so they feel empowered.
Since long ago, men have been too prideful. Is it cuz they have sticks hanging as their pee pee? Like WTGDFH? One of the reasons I don't have a BF. Guys are so damn needy. Females in olden day provide guys mental, emotional and physical needs while men provide financially and figure their role is done. Like guys, screw you. I will live as an independent until I see a guy who doesn't say "Your a girl so I'm the one who has to protect you." or "Girls are weaker.".
What kind of weak? Physically, maybe, emotionally and mentally, I'd say guys and gals have the same strength for that. But more mentally for girls since once they grow up and decide to have kids, they're body will be mentally and physically drained. Maybe emotionally.
So much ranting but I can't help it. Stupid a** Sh** head called a dad makes me want to hit him with a sock full of hard frozen solid butter.
Thursday, December 31, 2015
Wednesday, December 16, 2015
December 15, 2015
I've been working a lot at Magnolia bakery lately and it has times when it is fun but also times where I just want to snap at some people. 3 people to be exact. I can tolerate most attitude towards me but, sometimes the customers and those three getting on my nerves on the same day can really take a toll on my patience.
However, I managed to keep it in. I've almost snapped at long nose cuz she seemed to give me attitude one day, but it was her first time and I figured maybe she was having a bad day and let it go. But that put her on my black list. This is a work place, not your fucking stress relieving spa resort. Although I do talk bad about people behind their backs, I don't literally do it to their faces to hinder my work with them. Two faced yea, but I'd rather work with them than hate each other and having to quit.
Then there is the person who works in the kitchen. I didn't like her at first sight and wanted to avoid her. And rightfully so. She gave me attitude 3 times and I figured that this was her personality. Even one of her coworkers came up to me and apologized. I honestly don't know what she's thinking to be giving people attitude. She does her job right, that's good, but I don't think she has the right to snap at someone when someone makes a mistake. It's best to just talk to them seriously, not try to degrade them make yourself feel superior. That immediately put her on the black list. On top of that, since I don't want to have conflicts with her, I keep a checklist and take inventory every 2-3 hours so that I don't have to deal with her attitude again. But she does occasionally slip, even though the problem that occurs isn't my fault. I just might snap at her when it comes time, for me to quit.
Lastly, it's two of the managers. I am two faced to a certain degree, however, these two managers bruduh, I tell you, once they show their true personalities, you might just quit on the spot. I'm quite patient and open minded so I try to see in their shoes, however, it's to a certain degree as I am a human being with a brain and feelings. They tell us to do things that I'm sure would improve the companies image, however, they do not consider how the employee would need to handle this or that. If you cannot adapt well to a changing environment, then you''ll have a hard time keeping up.
Overall, this company I guess isn't half bad if it weren't for attitude giving people, lazy people (I'm lazy but I get things done when needed lol), judge Judy people (not mine) and I'm King/Queen people. We are all being paid to do our job, hourly or monthly, I don't care. You don't go around thinking people below you. That'll only get you disrespect and most certainly a blocked road later on for connections.
I try to get along with everyone but I have a feeling that I just may snap soon. And omfg, a customer today, I thought she cray cray. She must have cried before buying stuff our kiosk, she sniffled a little and gave me attitude that I didn't understand a, I think, British term for napkins. Like hello, this is Hawaii. Say napkins. I ain't your stress reliever. And to top it off, she complained that she want a whole lot more icing. GAVE ME ATTITUDE. But you know what, I was patient, my coworker iced the cupcakes with a lot more icing, she walked off like she was a queen. You know what though? Alright, your having a bad day, I'll just look it over. Customers are customers and so, I'll see her once and hopefully, not very often so that we don't have conflict.
By the time we closed, I was dancing in joy that I didn't have to deal with mental customers (not all are like that, some are extremely nice and I hope to see them once more one day), and of course, certain coworkers, whom I put on my black list.
My black list doesn't mean I hate them, it's more of a, I can't get along with them, or their personality just erks me so much that I may blow up at them one day if they take it too far so I should try to keep my distance from them list of people.
Don't be fooled by getting a sweet treat a day and few drinks from the kiosk. The work is hard and if you are not an active person, this job will drain you mentally and physically. I'm surprised I'm still living lol
However, I managed to keep it in. I've almost snapped at long nose cuz she seemed to give me attitude one day, but it was her first time and I figured maybe she was having a bad day and let it go. But that put her on my black list. This is a work place, not your fucking stress relieving spa resort. Although I do talk bad about people behind their backs, I don't literally do it to their faces to hinder my work with them. Two faced yea, but I'd rather work with them than hate each other and having to quit.
Then there is the person who works in the kitchen. I didn't like her at first sight and wanted to avoid her. And rightfully so. She gave me attitude 3 times and I figured that this was her personality. Even one of her coworkers came up to me and apologized. I honestly don't know what she's thinking to be giving people attitude. She does her job right, that's good, but I don't think she has the right to snap at someone when someone makes a mistake. It's best to just talk to them seriously, not try to degrade them make yourself feel superior. That immediately put her on the black list. On top of that, since I don't want to have conflicts with her, I keep a checklist and take inventory every 2-3 hours so that I don't have to deal with her attitude again. But she does occasionally slip, even though the problem that occurs isn't my fault. I just might snap at her when it comes time, for me to quit.
Lastly, it's two of the managers. I am two faced to a certain degree, however, these two managers bruduh, I tell you, once they show their true personalities, you might just quit on the spot. I'm quite patient and open minded so I try to see in their shoes, however, it's to a certain degree as I am a human being with a brain and feelings. They tell us to do things that I'm sure would improve the companies image, however, they do not consider how the employee would need to handle this or that. If you cannot adapt well to a changing environment, then you''ll have a hard time keeping up.
Overall, this company I guess isn't half bad if it weren't for attitude giving people, lazy people (I'm lazy but I get things done when needed lol), judge Judy people (not mine) and I'm King/Queen people. We are all being paid to do our job, hourly or monthly, I don't care. You don't go around thinking people below you. That'll only get you disrespect and most certainly a blocked road later on for connections.
I try to get along with everyone but I have a feeling that I just may snap soon. And omfg, a customer today, I thought she cray cray. She must have cried before buying stuff our kiosk, she sniffled a little and gave me attitude that I didn't understand a, I think, British term for napkins. Like hello, this is Hawaii. Say napkins. I ain't your stress reliever. And to top it off, she complained that she want a whole lot more icing. GAVE ME ATTITUDE. But you know what, I was patient, my coworker iced the cupcakes with a lot more icing, she walked off like she was a queen. You know what though? Alright, your having a bad day, I'll just look it over. Customers are customers and so, I'll see her once and hopefully, not very often so that we don't have conflict.
By the time we closed, I was dancing in joy that I didn't have to deal with mental customers (not all are like that, some are extremely nice and I hope to see them once more one day), and of course, certain coworkers, whom I put on my black list.
My black list doesn't mean I hate them, it's more of a, I can't get along with them, or their personality just erks me so much that I may blow up at them one day if they take it too far so I should try to keep my distance from them list of people.
Don't be fooled by getting a sweet treat a day and few drinks from the kiosk. The work is hard and if you are not an active person, this job will drain you mentally and physically. I'm surprised I'm still living lol
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