November 19, 2015

Lately, I've had the urge to commit suicide. Mainly cuz of the shit head called a father. Before, I was too afraid to even try to harm myself but right now, I'm sitting here, digging my nails into my wrist, trying to see how many times I'll need to do it to see blood draw out.

Like shit, parents only raise you because they want to look good in society, because your blood related, I get to use them as my social standing or some shit. There's the conscious people who do it and the unconscious.

I consider my parents both. They want the perfect child unconsciously but make it so that the kid has good social morals consciously. And I still didn't draw any blood.

I guess I'll be ripping my wrist all night before I see anything.

November 01, 2015

I'm going to be starting my new work place training tomorrow! And I had a Halloween party at the fifth floor yesterday xD
We didn't get any candy when we went to Waikiki but it was hella fun when we started trying to dodge all the people getting out of waikiki, I was a horse lolol

Anyways, I'm starting my work at Magnolia bakery and honestly, I'm pretty nervous! I don't know what exactly to wear but since they said bussiness like, I'll wear the black pants and my white collared shirt for starters.

I hope everything goes alright tomorrow! Wish me luck!