August 28, 2014

I went to school today since it was thursday and the most embarrassing thing happened to me at the last period of the day! So in ceramic's class we needed to get a potato sack thing and my table mates usually got me my stuff since I sometimes got their's.

I saw one on my left side a bit up from my hand. Thinking they placed it there because I was writing, I grabbed it and placed it out in front of me. Then I looked a bit up and saw the Asian guy's expression like, why'd she take the sack from me. And THAT MADE ME SOOOO EMBARRASSED!!

I'm so glad he didn't say anything. If he did, I would have flippin felt embarrassed to death. But he spoke to his friends in an asian language I didn't know so, idk if he told his friends. But that flippin. I'm still embarrassed about it. I wish, I didn't take it. I feel so embarrassed. I'll just make my table mates brownies.... All G right? Lol

I had to stay after school for 30 minutes to finish up my ceramics project and so I went to the bus stop to meet up with my friend Ana. We rode the bus and went to Punahou because Ana had to give Isabella her wig. Right after that, my mom called me asking where I was. I said, Punahou. Then she gets all mad and acts like it's the end of the world for her! Let me tell you, she did not warn me about her needing to go out today AT ALL. And then she makes me feel guilty!

So I started running to the bus stop and when I was about to cross the last street, my bag opens and all my stuff comes pouring out! Like seriously!? In the middle of street! When I was crossing! So I picked everything up quickly and walked back and shoved everything into my bag. I missed the bus and so had to take a later one. After I had gotten off the bus, I ran to my place which is a 20 minute walk. I ran so it only took me 10 minutes. My mom doesn't even say sorry. She only  praises me a bit. She tells me she's going with my dad to someplace so I had to feed Rose (baby sister) and give her a bath.

I fed Rose her dinner. But I didn't wash her. My parents came home and my mom starts ranting that I didn't wash Rose and that I didn't do the dishes. I did give Rose food to eat. She never told me about washing the dishes and I was planning on giving Rose a bath at 8:40pm. She rants at me all pissed when I should be as pissed as her for making me run half way back home!

Then she sees me using a huge bucket to keep my baby turtle in. Yes, Raindrop is small but, that doesn't mean she can stay in small places. She needs space. I mean think about it. Would you like to live in a small place? And my mom says, she's not even that big! Your 5 gallon tank is big enough! She threatens me that if I don't put raindrop back into the 5 gallon tank that she would  throw my stuff out and kill Raindrop. Nuh- Uh. I ain't letting that happen.

So I went through all that back breaking work for nothing. THEN my dad comes in all pissed at me. He was angry cuz the paint to the bathroom he painted peeled off. It was my doing. But not on purpose. I told him that. Then he brings in my mom and she starts scolding me. Then she says YOU KNOW SO MUCH ABOUT TURTLES BUT NOT ABOUT PAINT!? Woah. Hold up. You know I know a lot about turtles yet, you don't let me use a bucket? Woah. And on top of that, it's my dad's fault for not coating it over with something so that it doesn't peel off! After I shower, I always get some paint stuck on the bottom of my foot! It's not my fault!

So I cried by myself in my room. Well, I techniquely clenched my teeth so that  I wouldn't make any noise and let the tears come down. Then I quickly wiped them and hell. My teeth started aching. :<


Today was the WORST day ever!!! I wish I could forget about today. It was just so bad. And my parents add on to the stress. I literally wanted to kill myself. But I don't have the guts too. I kind of believe in heaven and hell. I don't want to go to hell. If this wasn't real, I would have killed myself and went to eternal sleep already.

Anyways, that's all for today!